Temptation is all around.

I know I don't need it but I want it, and I should be able to have it if I can afford it. I can't keep that mentality. That is how I got in this position in the first place. Society isn't going to change. I can't walk into an ice cream shop and demand they move elsewhere so I'm not reminded daily of my battle to overcome my cravings.

If gaining weight was so easy for me, why can't losing it be just as easy? Because something worth doing is....or some shit like that. I don't have time for that, I'm busy trying to lose weight.

Weight loss might not be so hard if it weren't for constant reminders of food you shouldn't eat or the incessant feeling of wanting to eat those foods.

I've often said that if I woke up skinny I would do everything I could to maintain it. Truth is, I probably would balloon up just like now. I have to change my habits, my cravings, my laziness.

I know that will power is a learned behavior. For right now, I need to take decision making out of my life. Given the chance to make a choice and I will make the wrong one. So, no more sweets in my house. The ones that are there are fruit and skinny girl ice cream. Everything I eat is on a list that I sit down and make every Sunday. Not on the list, it doesn't pass my mouth. I need to be strong and regimented in order to accomplish my weight loss.

One of the days I plan to walk passed an ice cream shop and not crave the items inside. One day, I will succeed.
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